I think...i know ....what I want from LIFE
Sometimes life scares me ...
More so the reason when I try to find and find nothing ... of what life is ?
But i think i know what I want from life.Its love.
Love: A strong positive emotion of regard and affection.
It was my first job and it was not very long when I became one of the many who spent day long scratching their heads , with their eyes popped out ...sitting like a tadpole-basking in the high wavelength light oozing from something that looks like the idiot box...
Being my first project , it was more of a challenge to prove myself good..
Spent hours at a stretch ...sometimes crossing human limits , days together..sometimes crossing mechanical limits...and then a year passed .
Little did i realise ...that one whole year had passed ..and still the orgy of work continued.
It was the time when my grandma was breathing her last few breaths...few miles away from me...
But nothing did i feel ....didn't even think about her..
All that i cared was to meet the deadline...without considering the deadline that was soon to be met.
She was no more...and I felt nothing again.I was emotionally dead .
few months later...
No much work ..i was relieved from the arduous job schedule.
A day on my way back home ..when something struck me .
I wanted to listen to her voice ...
I missed the way she lovingly called my name..I missed her love.
Tears trickled from my eyes .. Just realised what i missed .What had i done ..i couldn't even be there for her last rituals ...i wasn't there!
I felt helpless!
I hated myself..and still do .I wish .. i wish ..she will forgive me .
lesson my life.. taught me
Theres only loved ones you live for...and when they are gone..they take away one of the reasons for you to live!
I am scared to leave my family..my few close friends..the people i love !
I am scared ..that someday i will miss their smile..their love ,their care...someday all that they will leave for me are memories ..
Money , Career....is important in life ..but someday try weighing them against the love u get ...
You shall find the answer for yourself!
More so the reason when I try to find and find nothing ... of what life is ?
But i think i know what I want from life.Its love.
Love: A strong positive emotion of regard and affection.
It was my first job and it was not very long when I became one of the many who spent day long scratching their heads , with their eyes popped out ...sitting like a tadpole-basking in the high wavelength light oozing from something that looks like the idiot box...
Being my first project , it was more of a challenge to prove myself good..
Spent hours at a stretch ...sometimes crossing human limits , days together..sometimes crossing mechanical limits...and then a year passed .
Little did i realise ...that one whole year had passed ..and still the orgy of work continued.
It was the time when my grandma was breathing her last few breaths...few miles away from me...
But nothing did i feel ....didn't even think about her..
All that i cared was to meet the deadline...without considering the deadline that was soon to be met.
She was no more...and I felt nothing again.I was emotionally dead .
few months later...
No much work ..i was relieved from the arduous job schedule.
A day on my way back home ..when something struck me .
I wanted to listen to her voice ...
I missed the way she lovingly called my name..I missed her love.
Tears trickled from my eyes .. Just realised what i missed .What had i done ..i couldn't even be there for her last rituals ...i wasn't there!
I felt helpless!
I hated myself..and still do .I wish .. i wish ..she will forgive me .
lesson my life.. taught me
Theres only loved ones you live for...and when they are gone..they take away one of the reasons for you to live!
I am scared to leave my family..my few close friends..the people i love !
I am scared ..that someday i will miss their smile..their love ,their care...someday all that they will leave for me are memories ..
Money , Career....is important in life ..but someday try weighing them against the love u get ...
You shall find the answer for yourself!
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